Karimabadi

Pedar,

I am done with school! I finally made it! I always thought you'd be here to see ...but ... I was as tired as you said I would be but I did not give up! thanks for all the things you taught me! I will always alwasy and always love you!

missing you so very much,                                                                                                                    Shahrzad/ December 20, 09 

Pedar, I brought Shireen to Behesht Zahra last month! I am sure you were there, she did not know why we came, but it was too soon for her to know....missing you more than ever .....

Shahrzad / December  19, 09.                                              

Pedar jaan,

Tomorrow is Shahrzad's BDay, and I am far away from her, and you are far from us and...
yes, we are not spoiled anymore,

Love, Mehrzad December 3 ,09

Pedari,

Here I received a song that reminded me more on your departure than our beautiful moments shared. I cried and cried, but promise me you wouldn't:

 Mehrzad November 22,09

Pedaram, 

 Thanksgiving is around the corner, I am so tempted to do the full thing, am about to go for the Turkey...God help me with my decisions! 

 Mehrzad November 22,09

Bobi jaan,

It sounds like graduation is coming up! I am going to be defending and graduating in December. I do not need and armor neither do I need a back up... will be defending in a most peaceful manner! Not sure what I am going to be wearing, but  you will recognize me. Haven't changed a bit!

Miss you...

 Mehrzad November 9,09

Pedaram,

There is a flock of bird here singing...I cannot see them in the dark, and cannot tell what they are, but they are singers for sure! As my secound draft is due, maybe they are here to bring a harmonic tone from heaven to earth...I know you are watching over our shoulders,

Almost there...

Mehrzad October 3,09

Pedar,

Shireen has a surgery on her thumb today. I am worried, but am trying to act normal. How did you feel when I had a surgery? Did you get worried? I wish you were here to boost my confidence; one “everything will be fine” from you would make me calm…

miss you Bobi

Shahrzad/ September 16, 2009.

Bobi joonam,

I finally got my committee member’s signatures and am now working on the comments I got on my last draft! I kept my promise! I wish we could celebrate together…. miss you a lot …and think of you all the time… Shahrzad/ September 16, 2009.

Salaam Bobi, 

Believe it or not the first draft of the thesis is in! Dr. McKee is happy with it and because of her happiness has lots of red, happy remarks all over the paper...it had to be revised at least SEVERAL  time and I am dead set on finishing, maybe I drive somewhere beautiful, I sure need it,

Send me love from up there, we sure can use some real love down here...!

Mehrzad September, 14, 09

Bobi, Daashteem?

You were not supposed to call cops on me from heaven! Thursday morning, my usual rout, I pass by a police man which I felt is going to join me in a second....and he sure did. The beautiful lights on his motorcycle turns to alternate white and blue and comes to escort me to the next parking place available...My heart is pounding in a way that I can't hear myself think...well, do you know who he was? of course you do, you are the one who sent him to me to teach me a lesson! He was the same officer who stopped by the house after your passing...Ok you did not have to take the matters in your hand! I will be driving like ants march, or like turtles run, do not worry,

Always a good student,

 Mehrzad/ August 8, 09

Bobi, 

 Last Monday in July I was about to leave work that my phone rang, I was debating to pick up the phone or not since it was already after hours...I did and I heard Callie's voice:

- Can I speak with Mehrzad?

- This is she...

- Hello Mehrzad, I am Callie, Carole's daughter....
I knew it...I knew that I did not get a chance to say good bye to her...The same brutal C took her away and had the same timing as yours... from April to July...I hung up the phone and knew it would be sometime before I can drive and see the road...

I can't make peace with the big, brutal C,

 Mehrzad/ August 8, 2009

Pedar joun, 

July is gone...I really am confused about this month...it is full of intense emotions. As if the best and the worst of the two worlds are gathered to hit you in the head. I learned it when we lost you then Shireen was born in less than a week. This July was no exception...it is difficult even with a healthy heart to go through it all and does not collapse. As the weather gets hot, loss and love intensifies in the air we breath in...

Thinking of you,

Mehrzad/ August 8, 2009

Pedaram,

Today was Shireen's Bday and I should say when it comes to being a parent, Shahrzad is definitely like you. She may try being tough at times, but she is so soft when it comes to Shireen...I was watching a video from the moment Shireen saw her Slide in their living room...she was ecstatic...I am sure you are watching from up there, after all Shireen wanted to call you the other day ;),

Love from earth,

 Mehrzad/ July 19, 2009

Pedar,

Mehrzad has gotten some good genes from you! She is very خوش اخلاق ! and she has good friends from different walks of lives. I have my own limited, loyal pals! But cannot make friend with everyone… each of us have gotten some good genes from you! I thank God for having had you as a dad. It is a blessing for me to have thirty years of fun at home, something not everyone can claim to have! Missing you on this hard 13 of July!

Shahrzad/ July 13, 2009

13 of July! I wish we could skip this day two years ago and could make you stay;  I wish we could go back in time, or…

Missing you!  Shahrzad/ July 13, 2009

Did I tell you that Shireen wanted to call you last week?! She brought the phone and said she wanted to talk to Pedar! I could not stop my tears! Does she really feel your presence?!

Shahrzad/ July 13, 2009

Pedaram,

Shahrzad said that I would not be able to host on Friday night on my own...little had she known about my determination to do it and the support I have gotten from friends...God, I blame your good gene pool, I have been blessed by great friends because of the passion for people that you left on my DNA coding! I get energy from their positive presence that makes me move mountains, let alone host a Jalaseh Qoran...You must have received the Fatiha's on your end? 

Keep shining on me,

 Mehrzad/ July 12, 2009

Pedaram, 

It has been the longest two years...but still it feels that you are watching over our shoulders sending positive thoughts...It is so strange how close and far apart we are. I do not want to remember the details of that 13th, which took you away. I want to remember something great about you...your unbelievable  sense of humor...Gosh! Your love for us and Maadar is another thing that made us miserable when you left. I remember whenever you wanted to take off to go shopping you would ask Maadar if she wants to join you. If she accepted, your eyes would lit up and you would have yet another cup of tea before you take off. If she would have said no on the other hand, you would have done anything in your power to change her mind and started like this:How about نان و عشق و زندگی
Then she would accept it 90 percent of the time, I can not  imagine her pain in your absence...

 Mehrzad/ July 12, 2009

Bobie golam,

Mehrzda is right! We are connected through your site; you are still the one who connects us all together… to tell you the truth I still would like to share what happens in my life with you before I notify others!!! It makes me feel good to feel our connection is not lost… two years ago we were about to lose the most precious treasure in our lives… my wound is still as fresh as the first day… miss you Bobi…

Shahrzad/ July 11, 2009

This is a blog from earth to heaven! We can listen to each other talking to you over these lines! for example it is July 6th and I found out about Shahrzad's glasses through these lines and not our 10+ telephone conversations...I missed you when I was in the wilderness..when I was happy and carefree...remembered how much of a happy camper you were always...I may not  be the winner of who resembles you the most, but I am happy to be the runner up, after all there is only three of us!

Keep on loving you....

Mehrzad/ July 6, 2009

Pedar,

I just got my first pair of glasses; reading ones! Just like your eyes, mine need more help when it comes to reading these small letters! When I walked in the office I never thought I would end up getting a prescription for reading … I am becoming more like you each day … Missing you,

Shahrzad/ July 1, 2009